STUCK

I saw this today over at Oh So Beautiful Paper, and talk about hitting the nail on the head! It has been one of those weeks. You know the kind. The ones where you cry and cry and can't stop? Ugh, it stinks! I've been having one of those, "who am I" kind of weeks ... or maybe it's been months, I'm not sure. It's been this really deep ache in my gut I tell you what and "stuck" is a great way to describe it.

I've said to many people lately if it were socially acceptable I'd be the hippie type. You know long wavy hair, long skirts, tank top, no bra, showers occasionally, has a huge garden, lives on an acreage, paints in the barn, has 6 dogs and and roost chickens kind of person, and don't forget my crazy herd of kids running amuck (can you image poor Murph in that situation? haha). But that isn't the season I am in right now. Right now I live in the 'burbs, work in a law firm, and have no urban chickens. I don't paint (unless it's a wall in our house), I still shower (Murph might disagree on the weekends) and we don't have a family yet. Now don't get me wrong, I LOVE my life. It is so full in so many ways, but something lately is amiss and I am ready to become unstuck. I think a part of my soul is wandering around outside of my body somewhere and I want to find it.

So I did the logical thing and made a list. Thinking maybe one of these things will fill the space between:

• Chop off my hair, I mean short. Like really short.
• Dye my hair red. 
• New glasses
• New shoes
• Get a long skirt and spend the morning at the farmer's market with a scarf in my hair
• Sketch every day for a month
• Take a calligraphy class
• Get a new tattoo
• Get a puppy
• Volunteer my time somewhere
• Drink more wine
• Run more
• Become a certified yoga instructor
• Take a class at Hope
• Do cartwheels in the yard
• Write a mission statement for my life
• Do more for others
• Learn to sew

I don't know what it is, but I'm not going to feel stuck any more. I'm on a mission to find me!